31 August 2011

cup (excerpt from my autobiography)

I have a plastic cup that I always use that has small cracks in the bottom that let out small amounts of water.

There are three hairline cracks radiating from the center.

One crack cuts through the e in 'made in china'.

At first it let out one or two drops an hour. Lately it has been dripping more.

I drink things faster now.

It seems like it lets out too much water to be used as a cup anymore, but I don't want to stop using it.

It has sentimental value or something. I am comfortable with it.

It seems like it would be more 'worth it' to just keep the cup with its overt flaws, than to throw it away and find another one that matches or exceeds its meaning and level of familiarity in my life.

Some days I wish it would just completely break in half, dramatically as I'm drinking from it, forcing me to move on and stop using it.

So that I'm not the bad guy.

26 August 2011

final summer studio update

Here are the nearly finished, small fort pieces. I ran out of time in the studio so I'll have to wait until school starts to finish them.

4'x5' Oil on Canvas (also not finished)

Detail of above

..I'll take better pictures later.

17 August 2011

Re-watching "Fear (1996)" 15 years later

Warning: There are many 'spoilers' in this 'review'. I you haven't seen Fear. I suggest watching it before reading this, especially if you are a 7 year old. If you have seen Fear, I suggest re-watching it as you read this as a kind of live commentary.

I remember watching Fear when I was around 6 or 7 years old. I have fragmented but distinct memories of watching it in my living room with my family on our old 20 inch TV. We were either watching it on TV or we had picked it out from Blockbuster, but my brother kept mentioning how it was new. He would have been about 13 or 14 at the time. My parents were always pretty good about letting us watch R rated films as small children. This was probably due to my dad's open animosity towards "childish cartoons", and so I ended up watching movies like Fear and Con Air before I could read (I only learned to read in grade 2, my parents were worried).

08 August 2011

Fort Paintings (WIP)

Here are two more work in progress 'fort' paintings to go with the one in previous post. They are hopefully going to go in a group show I will be doing in the fall.

04 August 2011

Big Painting Work in Progress

Starting a big painting with a week left of summer studio...

I'm posing like a presenter on a game show. It seemed cute at the time.

delayed studio post

I haven't posted in about two weeks. I feel bad about this even though probably no one cares except me and maybe two other people.

I drank coffee out of a novelty sized 'Asterix et Obelix' mug. It holds about three times a normal mug.

I felt 'insane' and tired after drinking it.

There is about a week left of summer studio time before fourth year starts.

I feel like I only just started to take it 'seriously'.

I feel worried often about the inconsistencies between my desire to be productive and my lack of self motivation.

I think I like people more who work really hard and make stuff, and I want to be more like that so people will like me.

I feel like my life up until now has been extremely static and will change drastically in the next year. I imagine it as a squirrel staying very still and alert, pretending not to see me approaching, holding my hand out like I have food for it even though I clearly do not. It observes me warily, shivers slightly, flinches, then bolts up a tree.

I feel like I have had too much caffeine today.